It seems like this will be a tough last few weeks, we have our teaching sessions coming up, our syllabus is nearly ending and my postures certainly aren’t up to the standards iv set myself. It seems I struggle to do headstands or handstands and it seems like I will never get it. I see myself doing it in my dreams and then I wake up and think I can. Then reality sets in. I did one the other day against the wall with Susie’s help but haven’t managed one on my own yet, or even against the wall by myself. It seems like Im getting left behind. But I need to get out of that mind set and that’s the hard part for me. Something that comes to mind, which particularly brightened my day yesterday, was after Yoga when Susie told me she admire my strong will during Asana practice. We had to do one forward bending pose back and forth for almost 110 times and she told me that she admired me for carrying on without a struggle. Its nice when someone gives you a compliment, but it seems that I can neither take a compliment nor take a criticism. Roshan talks about not letting the world influence you that If you are happy and content with your life then no matter what people say or do you should just smile and say thank you, not letting it penetrate or disturb your bubble of happiness.
I need to stop with the hip openers!
I need to stop with the hip openers!
Our 4th week went pretty good apart from a few ups and downs, generally expected in or around this time, but I am back on track, full of energy and now ready for our last two weeks of yoga! It sounds crazy saying that! As i mentioned before, a few of us are studying Reiki and so far we have had some great experiences. This weekend we will finish Reiki 1 and will move onto Reiki 2, which will be interesting. Its somewhat intense at the moment studying both, because we now have no free time during the week but it is worth every minute. We do three hours a day from 2pm until 5pm after a cup of chai at Kanaan where we meet him, which seems to fly by when we get into it. We are learning a lot about ourselves, each other and our abilities doing these studies and it seems like fate that brought us together to do this. This week I have been trying super hard with two poses i struggle with 'The wheel' aka 'The crab' and 'Headstand', taking time in our yoga hall at night time and in my room to keep practicing and practicing. It seems to have paid of and I have mastered the wheel and am now somewhat able to do a headstand, still partly using the wall though, but still. Its a start! This weekend we planned to buy Sari's in Rishikesh, for our graduation in two weeks and we managed to get our hands on some beauties on our outing today. After a big Kanaan lunch of course. I absolutely love mine, but all will be revealed when the time comes. How exciting.
Today we had a pretty great Yoga class this morning in which our teacher Nirendra had us individually guide the class through a pose. The funny thing is, I got the twisted triangle which i can never normally get balanced with right away, but when the time came to speak and guide everybody into the pose correctly I managed to get into the pose and carry on with my cues. Proud or what! This week our syllabus will end and we will spend the next week doing lesson planning and sequences of poses which will be fun. Then the scary stuff happens, where we have to teach our class for anywhere between 45- 90 minutes, but as we are in the same boat, I feel we will fly it. So for week 4 its been a lot of ups and downs but it has ended with an extreme up, and it was proved to me last night when we decided to skip meditation and create our own mediation by my Shiva shrine in my room complete with meditative music. It was so beautiful apart from the moment when the most non relaxing song came on the playlist towards the end and we all burst out laughing. We went to bed feeling chilled out and super happy, and woke up feeling the same which is the way it should be. There has been a lot of little dramas here as well to keep us entertained but they are our little secrets, so I cant be telling. On a final note, tomorrow is the 1st of September and the anniversary of my 8th week in India, which is so crazy but so exciting. Here's to two more amazingly happy, joyful and